This is personal and long but you guys were a part of this story I want to share.
3 years ago I was in New York to give an artist talk on my project My Body is a Cage thanks to a friend and curator. The year before that was a dark time personally and financially. It got to the point where I considered quitting photography as my business was floundering and I was creatively empty.
At my lowest point I finally decided to only photograph what I wanted. Wait, that’s not true. At my lowest point I considered jumping off a bridge or going to a doctor and getting medicated but that’s another story. So, basically I decided to only do what felt right and photograph what I wanted. Not what I thought my clients would want or expected of me. What choice was there? New ideas were slowly percolating and I started a project about identity, women and body image with no regard as to whether it would generate an income or please anyone else or get any recognition of any kind. The irony is that My Body is a Cage is what reignited my passion and love of photography. By fate or serendipity I was invited by Jennifer Goldberg Rozenbaum to Seattle to participate in her first CreativeLive boudoir course. She shared that she chose me as one of her students because of that project and even mentioned it to her global audience. Later she introduced me to Jeff Jochum who would become my mentor and business coach. Working with him made me realize that my fundamental values were intimacy and courage and my ultimate mission was to celebrate radical self-acceptance. It even gave me the confidence to become a creative business coach. Now, when I see my clients making major shifts in their lives and their businesses are thriving and rewarding, I’m so proud of them and all they have accomplished.
Then I discovered The Desire Map. All the decisions I started to make were based on the intention and feeling-not the goal. It attracted different clients and friends and people into my life.
Today, 3 years from that date, there’s wonder and gratitude for what has happened. I crowdfunded a campaign with the guidance of John T. Trigonis to attend an art residency, moved back to New York, met the dean of a major art school then was accepted into a new program at ICP – International Center of Photography and just found out that Transparency: The Gender Identity Project is going to be exhibited internationally.
So what’s my point? We all have peaks and valleys in our lives. If you’re at a low point, realize you’re not alone. You’re never alone. Realize that others will be there to help you if you start with the kernel of believing in yourself and following your own vision. There’s only one you. So be that! Imagine that: no one else has your talents and experience and gifts. How can you identify and then share that with the world? Once you do, your life will follow a path you might not have even dreamed for yourself.
Thanks to everyone for being part of this ridiculous journey called life.